I can't pinpoint it exactly, but I am so.much.happier.

I don't know if it's being officially out of the Church. I don't know if it's the new relationship. I don't know if it's the new job.

There are so many things in my life that have changed as of even two months ago, so I don't know what it is.

I think it has to be the church thing, though. Because external forces don't make a person happy.

But I admitted my atheism, just casually, just as it is and wow. It was so freeing. It felt so great.

I like where I am right now. It's all just good.